Friday, October 17, 2014

It’s possible to cling to our own lives so tightly that we forget we’re not our own. -Chuck Swindoll

Friday, October 10, 2014

Serving God

Consider the way you’re to work for Him. The word heartily doesn’t mean frantically. It refers to an all-in attitude. It also anticipates the joy you can experience when you serve Christ wholeheartedly in things He has actually wired and gifted you to do. And the commitment to serve heartily requires you to be in God’s Word regularly. You cannot afford to wander away. Time in Scripture is like a briefing for the days’ activities in the place the Lord has called you.
People are counting on you to be a faithful servant, whether they realize it or not. You have an awe-inspiring privilege to work in Christ’s kingdom. If you open your heart to this, you will begin to see an array of service opportunities set before you each day.
When we start to feel weary, we must fix our eyes again on Colssians 3:24: “You are serving the Lord Christ.” Especially when we get discouraged, we can rest in the truth that our lives and what we do aren’t about us—they’re about serving the Lord.

Help me, Lord.  I want to be a faithful servant.

Monday, May 05, 2014

“The Degree to which I am blessed staggers me... the degree to which I take that for granted shames me." -John Green

Saturday, April 19, 2014

An Unexpected Reunion

As I was reading "Far From Home" by Joseph Stowell this morning, I came across this story that made me cry.  It's a true story, and it's a great reminder to me how much God loves us.

Marcel Sternberger was a methodical man of nearly 50, with bushy white hair, guileless brown eyes, and the bouncing enthusiasm of a czardas dancer of his native Hungary.  He always took the 9:09am Long Island Railroad train from his suburban home to Woodside, NY, where he caught a subway into the city.
On the morning of January 10th, 1948, Sternberger boarded the 9:09am as usual.  En route he suddenly decided to visit Laszlo Victor, a Hungarian friend who lived in Brooklyn and was ill.
Accordingly at Ozone Park, Sternberger changed to the subway for Brooklyn, went to his friend's house, and stayed until mid-afternoon.  He then boarded a Manhattan bound subway for his Fifth Avenue office.  Here is Marcel's incredible story.

The car was crowded, and there seemed to be no chance of a seat.  But just as I entered, a man sitting by the door suddenly jumped up to leave, and I slipped into the empty place.
I've been living in New York long enough not to start a conversation with strangers.  But, being a photographer, I have the peculiar habit of analyzing people's faces, and I was struck by the features of a passenger on my left.  He was probably in his late 30's and when he glanced up, his eyes seemed to have a hurt expression in them.  He was reading a Hungarian-language newspaper, and something prompted me to say in Hungarian, "I hope you don't mind if I glance at your paper."
The man seemed surprised to be addressed in his native language, but he answered politely, "You may read it now.  I'll have time later on."
During the half hour ride to town, we had quite the conversation.  He said his name was Bela Paskin.  A law student when World War II started, he had been put into a German labor battalion and sent to the Ukraine.  Later he was captured by the Russians and put to work burying the German dead.  After the war he covered hundreds of miles on foot until he reached his home in Debrecen, a large city in eastern Hungary.
I myself knew Debrecen quite well, and we talked about it for a while.  Then he told me the rest of his story.  When he went to the apartment once occupied by his father, mother, brothers, and sisters, he found strangers living there.  Then he went upstairs to the apartment that he and his wife had once shared.  It also was occupied by strangers.  None of them had ever heard of his family.  As he was leaving, full of sadness, a boy ran after him, calling, "Paskin bacsi!  Paskin bacsi!"  That means "Uncle Paskin".  The child was the son of some old neighbors of his.  He went to the boy's home and talked to his parents.  "Your whole family is dead," they told him.  The Nazis took them and your wife to Auschwitz."
Auschwitz was one of the worst Nazi concentration camps.  Paskin gave up all hope.  A few days later, too heartsick to remain any longer in Hungary, he set out again on foot, stealing across border after border until he reached Paris.  He managed to immigrate to the United States in October 1947, just 3 months before I met him.
All the time he had been talking, I kept thinking that somehow his story seemed familiar.  A young woman whom I had met recently at the home of friends had also been from Debrecen; she had been sent to Auschwitz; from there she had been transferred to work in a German munitions factory.  Her relatives had been killed in the gas chambers.  Later, she was liberated by the Americans and was brought here in the first boatload of displaced persons in 1946.
Her story had moved me so much that I had written down her address and phone number, intending to invite her to meet my family and thus help relieve the terrible emptiness in her life.
It seemed impossible that there could be any connection between these two people, but as I neared my station, I fumbled anxiously in my address book.  I asked in what I hoped was a casual voice, "Was your wife's name Marya?"
He turned pale.  "Yes!" he answered.  "How did you know?"
He looked as if he were about to faint.
I said, "Let's get off the train."  I took him by the arm at the next station and led him to a phone booth.  He stood there like a man in a trance while I dialed her phone number.
It seemed hours before Marya Paskin answered. (Later I learned her room was alongside the telephone, but she was in the habit of never answering it because she had so few friends and the calls were always for someone else.  This time, however, there was no one else at home, and after letting it ring for a while, she responded.)
When I heard her voice at last, I told her who I was and asked her to describe her husband.  She seemed surprised at the question, but gave me a description.  Then I asked her where she had lived in Debrecen, and she told me the address.
Asking her to hold the line, I turned to Paskin and said, "Did you and your wife live on such-and-such a street?"
"Yes!"  Bela exclaimed.  He was white as a sheet and trembling.
"Try to be calm, I urged him.  "Something miraculous is about to happen to you.  Here, take this telephone and talk to your wife!"
He nodded his head in mute bewilderment, his eyes bright with tears.  He took the receiver, listened a moment to his wife's voice, then suddenly cried, "This is Bela!  This is Bela!" and he began to mumble hysterically.  Seeing that the poor fellow was so excited he couldn't talk coherently, I took the receiver from his shaking hands.
"Stay where you are," I told Marya, who also sounded hysterical, "I am sending your husband to you.  We will be there in a few minutes."
Bela was crying like a baby and saying over and over again, "It is my wife, I go to my wife!"
At first I thought I had better accompany Paskin, lest the man should faint from excitement, but I decided that this was a moment in which no stranger should intrude.  Putting Paskin into a taxicab, I directed the driver to take him to Marya's address, paid the fare, and said goodbye.
Bela Paskin's reunion with his wife was a moment so poignant, so electric with suddenly released emotion, that afterward neither he nor Marya could recall much about it.
"I remember only that when I left the phone, I walked to the mirror like in a dream to see if maybe my hair had turned gray," she said later.  "The next thing I know, a taxi stops in front of the house, and it is my husband who comes toward me.  Details I cannot remember; only this I know- that I was happy for the first time in many years...
"Even now it is difficult to believe that it happened.  We have both suffered so much; I have almost lost the capability to not be afraid.  Each time my husband goes from the house, I say to myself, 'Will anything happen to take him from me again?'"
Her husband is confident that no horrible misfortune will ever again befall them.  "Providence has brought us together," he says simply.  "It was meant to be."

Skeptical persons will no doubt attribute the events of that memorable afternoon to mere chance.  But was it chance that made Marcel Sternberger suddenly decide to visit his sick friend and hence take a subway line that he had never ridden before?  Was it chance that caused the man sitting by the door of the car to rush out just as Sternberger came in?  Was it chance that caused Bela Paskin to be sitting beside Sternberger, reading a Hungarian newspaper?
Was it chance- or did God ride the Brooklyn subway that afternoon?

Friday, March 14, 2014

A Symbol of Her Love

My beautiful afghan that Mom made me several years ago.  I will cherish it forever.

Sunday, March 02, 2014

My mom went to be with Jesus on Thursday morning, I found out just as I entered the building where I work.  Martha had said it had been a strange week.  One night she asked if someone was taking her home, to which Martha replied, "No, you're staying here tonight."  She has lived there for 3 1/2 years and has never talked about going home.  On Monday night she talked in her sleep all night long, some of the things my sister and brother in law heard, but most they didn't because they were in bed.  She was talking about loved ones who had already least some of the time.  On Tuesday morning my sister called the Dr, but they never returned her call. That night she coughed all night.  On Wednesday Martha called the Dr again and they gave her an appointment.  I met her there and after examining Mom, the doctor said that he suspected she had Pneumonia and called in a prescription for some antibiotics to the pharmacy.  We took her for a blood draw and a chest x-ray as well.  After all that, we got her some lunch at Wendy's, and brought it out to the car for her.  Martha said Mom was tired that day and slept most of it.  On Thursday morning when Martha peeked in her room at a little past 7:00am, she was uncovered, her oxygen tube was on the floor along with a pillow, and she was unresponsive.  No matter what, these things are impossible to prepare for, but we take comfort in knowing that Mom knew the Lord and is now free from her body that wasn't working right.  She is free and whole!  I still have episodes where I break down, like when I walked past the box of tissues on my end table in my living room yesterday.  They were put there for her when she sleeps here.  I sure will miss her, but I know the separation is temporary.

Saturday, February 08, 2014

Phil Wickham - Thirst (The Ascension)

 I love this song.

Wash over me like a tidal wave
Clean out what pulls me to the grave
Nothing left that you don't love

Take me where your river flows
Heal the desert in my soul
Let it wash over my feet
All I'm asking for is just a drink

I thirst for you
Yes my soul it thirsts for you
Even as the deer is panting for the stream
Even though my soul is thirsty
I thirst for you

Spirit of the living God
Would you fall afresh like rain on us
Burst the doors and flood the halls
Into forgotten rooms inside our hearts

And we will all be swept away
In the current of your love and grace
Living water flow to me
All I'm asking for is just a drink

I thirst for you
Yes my soul it thirsts for you
Even as the deer is panting for the stream
Even though my soul is thirsty
I thirst for you

One thing I ask and I would seek
To see You there in front of me
With nothing standing in the way
Just me before You unashamed....