Sunday, November 10, 2013
"The truth is, I saw myself in those little faces. I looked at them and felt this love that was unimaginable and knew that this is the way God sees me. The children would run to me with gifts of stones or dirt and I saw myself, filthy and broken, offering my life to the God of the universe and begging Him to make me into something beautiful. I sit here in a broken world, small and dirty at His feet, and He who sits so high chooses to commune with me, to love me anyway. He blinds himself to my sin and filth so that He can forge a relationship with me. And this is what he did for me with these precious children. He blinded me to the filth and disease, and I saw only children hungry for love that I was eager to share with them. I adored them, not because of who I was, but because of who He is. I just sat right down on that cold, hard floor and snuggled my nose into their dirty necks and kissed their fungus-covered heads and didn't even see it. I was in love."
Sunday, September 15, 2013
I cannot, for the life of me, figure out why everyone's picture is displayed on their blogs except for mine, even though all of my settings seem right. I probably spent an hour today trying to figure it out to no avail, so I finally just posted a picture and put my name above it. I really am all confused. :\
Thursday, August 22, 2013
mother commented, "Well, we got that over with for another couple weeks!" It sounds to me like she's glad to not have to go back there for 2 weeks. :( I can't even explain my feelings about him and her and our visit...overwhelming? sad? confusing?
Today I noticed a touch of color to some of the trees already and the days are getting shorter. Could summer be ending soon? I wish it didn't go by so fast.
Monday, June 17, 2013
Wednesday, January 09, 2013
Remember the carefree days of childhood? Me too. Sometimes I wish I was still a little girl and didn't have to make any big girl decisions. Life was much less stressful when I was younger, even just a few short years ago when my boys were toddlers and I didn't know that one of them had a learning disability that would cause him to struggle all through his years of schooling and beyond. All of us want the very best for our kids, and this isn't what I would have chosen, but God doesn't make any mistakes and He has a purpose and a plan for each one of us. My son has been struggling lately. It's difficult to understand, very hard to watch, and I feel just plain helpless. It's a good thing we know Jesus because He knows and understands all things, and this makes us all the more dependent on Him. I hope my boy is soon back to normal. These days it seems like there is one tough decision after another, not just concerning him and his needs, but other things as well.